Monday, May 5, 2014

Impossible Things



Hello. They call me Grace. This is my life and I am both the happiest and the saddest I have ever been.

I keep trying to figure this out, how to make the most of the time I have.

So much life yet to be lived, so many dreams.

But most times I’m just tired.

Tired of waiting – for life to slow down, for the heartaches to resolve, for the texts that don’t come, for the warmer days to stay – tired.

Tired of balancing all the responsibilities and goals and dreams and what do I focus on right now?

A new friend asked what I want to do in the future and I named a few things then half shook my head, half shrugged,

“I just want to do everything.”

He grinned, “You can do everything.”

I laughed at the impossible.

And yet I want to do impossible things. I want to live a dozen lifetimes and write a hundred books and travel the world with my camera and make great food and write songs and get married and have a family and live fully and be content and loved and how do I start now?

How do I start now when the living room still needs vacuuming and dinner has yet to be made and there is another article due at work and I haven’t worked on my photography class in two months and I can’t seem to write regularly and oh I forgot to reply to that text and where does it end?

At what point does life slow down so I can start living this idea in my head of what it should be?

What should life be?

When will I figure out this strange and wonderful thing called living?

I still have so many questions and few answers.

All I know right now is that to live is Christ and Christ means anointed and I will spend the rest of my life finding out what it looks like to live that kind of anointing.


Hi, I’m Grace and I've fallen in love with this life I've been given.
The future both terrifies and excites me. But there is nothing more beautiful than the fullness of this moment. 
And I don’t want to wait until tomorrow to start living.

3 comments:

  1. Hey! I just found your blog and I'm really liking it. These thoughts in this post are so relatable... I think we all struggle with this, having this amazing picture of what we want our lives to look like, yet get so caught up in the day-to-day things that we forget about our dreams or can't figure out how to get there. I think it's about knowing yourself and knowing what you need most... prioritizing and making your dreams real and attainable.

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    1. Thank you and I'm so glad! I believe so and I think you're absolutely right. It's just figuring out how to do that and then having the determination to pursue them that gets challenging. :)

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  2. Okay wow, yes. Yes to all of this. I feel the same way! I want to be in a band with my husband and tour the world. But I also want to grow deep roots at home and have a family. And become and chef and photographer and writer and runner and hiker and everything er! Let me know if you crack this secret to the universe. At least keep in mind you have company in this frustration.

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